Though I this started yesterday...I just wanna say, I guess there is a first for everything... O:

It just....feels wierd?...more like, its new?

Anyways, I'm marking this date myself. Just so I remember. ;o

Since I don't know how to do that title crap that hides this stuff, let me say, you can read this, but, be truthful if your gonna post.


Not to sound like I just love complaining...but...

Why is it the friends I get, just like to hurt me? ignore me? and avoid me?

._____.

I'm seriously considering just not doing anything with anyone anymore...wouldnt matter to anyone, since it seems only I consider them friends, to them, I must just be another person in the world to everyone.

1. A friend likes talking about me, and laughing at me when some kids call me ugly, over and over. I didn't care about being called ugly, but for a friend to encourage it knowing I'm RIGHT there, not enjoying it. Just. Pisses the shit out of me. Would you like it if I got a group together and started insulting you? ...No? Didnt think so. ...If you thought, "I wouldn't care." thats bull, everyone always cares, thats why we everyone dresses for everyday, otherwise, go into public naked and then tell me you don't care.

2. Also, apparently, I'm not any good at secrets? And random people that people meet in september have better friendships and get all sorts of attention and shit with my friends than me. Go me?

3. ALSO I just love the way the "friends" I have just love not including me in anything, if anything, they avoid me by keeping those obvious secrets. Great.

So lesson learned today. Old friends get bored of me easily. I'm not good enough to be many people's friends, and sometimes I guess, its better just to drop it than drag something as painful as this. So. PLEASE, if I'm not good enough to be a friend, I beg that you tell me, and let me move on, than let me feel like shit about not being able to get you to look at me, listen to me, and understand me.


God, I wish I could say that to my "friends" in person. Yes, more than one. But I never get to talk to them because they're always diverting the entirety of their attention to certain people. So I don't even bother. And I don't even get a "Morning, Hello, Goodbye." back anymore...but not that the word "Back" matters much, since if I don't say it, no one ever will. :/

Happy New year~ :DDD

Tried calling you peoples, but lines were busy. >:o

But yeah, thinking of you so, dun think I wasnt. D:

I gots a new mutha fudgin laptop & printer-scanner combo from Santa! >:D


....of course though, at the cost of never getting paid for babysitting the rest of my stay at home till college. :/

Merry Christmas eve-eve. :D

Not that things arent already depressing as is, but to keep hearing things that'll make my first year of college bad, is even worse.

While walking home from the doctor's, I wanted to drop onto the street and see if, A. Someone ran over me. B. People would drive around me. or C. Someone would drag my dead body over to the sidewalk and leave it there.

For the record, if I wasnt so lazy to throw myself onto the street, I'd hope for A, cause this lonely banana is losing alot of things worth living for......and fast.

...

You know anime is taking over the world when...

You put just the word Air in a google image search, expecting to get only scientific stuff about air, but get a few Air Gear anime/manga pictures in there. 8D

First the net, then the world! :D

Meh, 1st journal post in what? Two months? >.>

Only to rant.

..I'm sick and tired of this, life.

Same thing everyday, go to school, either goes bad or okay, hasn't gone "good" since the old days. And on that thought, I wouldve rather graduated last year and missed this year, this year reeks of unhappiness and lost friendships.

THEN after school, I come home to two little spoiled younger brothers that think they can do whatever the hell they want. And then at 5:40-ish, expect the Mom to come home and complain and yell to me about,
A. the kids doing something wrong, AGAIN.
B. her bad day at work(This includes her taking her anger out on me)
C. Me supposedly not helping around the house. (Oh, but I dont sacrifice my after-school life, and clean the house's major messes, deal with two brats, clean the kitchen, do the laundry, clean the kid's messes in our room, throw out the garbage, and listen to her yell.) *that was sarcasm*

Then, she always gets worked up about how I'm in a bad mood, AFTER all that? I just wish she wasnt my mother, cause I would LOVE to tell her everything I think about on those subjects.

And so, tonight, she was yelling at me about going to the garage to get the Christmas tree.

Her: Go with Phil and get the Christmas tree in the garage.
Me: umm, where're we gonna put it? Theres almost no room in this apartment..
Her: WELLL~ Where the hell do you think its gonna go?! And does it matter to you?!~
Me: Umm, well i think it would, cause I'm going out there in the frigid cold to go and drag it up the hill?
Her: Why're you in a bad mood?! You and your bad moods, what is it this time?! Your only in your good moods when your in your room away from us on your computer, playing games, or watching TV! I swear, if you don't stop with these attitudes your not gonna get anything for Christmas!
Me: I really dont have any attitude, but if anything, I'm kinda mad that your yelling at me, and couldnt answer my simple question of where I'm supposed to put this tree I'm getting. >.>

SO, yeah, after that I went out in the cold and started cursing loudly. :D

And on a side note, on her last statement about only being in a good mood away from them. I LOVE being away from them, because in my room, I don't get yelled at. ;D

I remember last time on a saturday I was really bored, so I went over to the Living room and sat on the couch with my little brother. Within 20 minutes, I was grounded for the weekend because I commented to my little brother about throwing food wrappers on the floor, because he did it right in front of me.

I SOOOO can't wait for college. =.= *hears heaven calling me*

My friend from Cali was showing me pictures from anime expo, and there are the bad, good, and REALLY GOOD cosplays in there...the really good ones I was so jealous of. D: ...Damn asians. >:o ...Though, the Link & Zelda one is my favorite in there, its soooo damn good. @.@

Anyways, take a look. I just spent an hour looking at them. :O

http://images.cosplay.com/gallery.php?BRSR=0&cat=40282&member=45160

(My friend cosplayed as Soi fong & Zexion) :o

I'm at my limit...

If only waking up each morning wasnt so easy, I'd sleep and never wake up...just to not feel like this anymore... ._.

I wish it was winter, so it could snow... ._.

o.o;; <-Times infinity.









*Another Banana moment brought to you by, Dole Bananas...Always fresh~*

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....I can die a happy banana now, 1 of my major goals in life has just been given to me..., I think? :D;;

Though..I'm extremely ...happy on that matter...I'm also kinda sad about it... ._.


(Cant say what it is...but just know that if I died tomorrow by a plane that fell out of the sky, I would be ok with it. Cause I'm THAT happy about this.) :D


Edit- *I SWEAR if this goal is someones idea of a joke, and it screws me over in the end, I'm not gonna be a very happy person. :D;*

As I mentioned in my last entry, something was wrong with my computer....last night, it imploded. D: ..So once AGAIN I had to copy all the anime from one HD to another and back up what I could, in the end, I lost Mahou negima sensei (Bah, that anime sucked anyways. XD) and Samurai Champloo (Nu. D:), and also all my Bleach Eps (aw wells, took up around 20GBs anyways, good ridance. >.>)

I've been mad/sad/wierd all last night and today...though, after just finishing reinstalling alllll that crap now, I'm a bit more relaxed....god, I'm waaay too attached to my computer... :D;; ..It's been with me for almost 7 years now, and its gonna stay that way for a little longer. ;D

ANYWAYS, classes in school are going okay...I'm already starting to get really lazy...and, the only class I'm really worried about is my Chem class...I swear, Mr Chanda talks like we all know what "H2O" is... >.>;; ..And when I was doing the homework, it mentioned alot of confusing crap...and I even looked at my 10 year old brother next to me, and said to him... "I can't understand a fucking thing on this piece of paper, can you? :D"

SO all in all, life goes up and down, then messes with you, then it makes up with you, then you get in some freak accident, then you die. :D

I think the worlds coming to an end. D:

Why? Cause my mom just got me and my lil bro a cell phone. o.o

My number is catchy~ (973) 508-5684 ;D

Looks like a fake number, thats why I chose that one. XD ...but yeah, its on a shared plan thingy so I can only use the minutes for emergencies. If you have Verizon, then you can call me all you want for however long you want, so I dont mind losing minutes. 8D ..BUT if you dont have Verizon, dont you dare call meh before 9pm on weekdays, but you can call me on weekends just cause. :D


ON a side note, my computer's dying.....once AGAIN! ...what the hell, God loves me one sec, then smites me the next... >.>;;

I gotta stop getting grounded so much...it gets EXTREMELY BORING at home, plus I get sad thinking of all the anime I couldve been watching at that time had I just shut up and stopped caring about defending what little justice goes on in this house. -.-

On a side note, this is the first time in a while since I've posted on lj, not that it matters to the 2-3 people that "can" read it. :D;;

At the mall...this guy at the game store gave me a sheet that list all the games coming out soon...and..

woah. FF7: Dirge of cerberus is coming out in two weeks. o.o ...so I was like.... "ho shit, I only got 4 dollars....ANYBODY GOT A DOLLAR I CAN BORROW?!...and not give back." XD

SO...in the end, I got the reservation.. yay me. 8D


BUT before all that...I was... THE WALKING BEEPER! >:D

Every store I went into the alarm went off at the door on me...Gap, Old navy, Sun coast, Kids Gap....and foot locker? XD ...Ends up I had a tracking thingy under my pocket in my pants... :D;;

Anyways...thats the life of a Banana... -.-

Just got back from the mall....I got drenched by the rain waiting for the bus to go home.. ._. ..BUT, on a good side, I bought a new game, and gots the FFXII Demo (Game comes out Halloween.. >.>;)

Kweh...been drowning myself in anime the past week...s. XD

In the past 2 week I've watched...

-2 episodes of .Hack//Roots. :D

-3 Episodes of Bleach. >:D

-3 Episodes of Air Gear. >:3

-2 Episodes of Ah! My Goddess ~Sorezore no Tsubasa. :3

-3 Eps of "Welcome to the NHK" (Really wierd anime....its about this guy that has issues...some reason I cant stop watching it.... o.o)

-The whole series of "The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi". :3 (Such a good anime! 12 eps, but soo good. Melissa might like it. >.>)

-The whole series of "Kono minikuku mo Ustukushi sekai". :3 (Another short one, 12 eps. But contentful. Didnt like the ending though. D:)

-The First season of Mahoromatic. (Dont ever remember the ending to that even though I "thought" I had all the dvds...ends up there was a second season after the 12 eps I have on dvd which I thought was the end....so In translation, I'm downloading that 2nd season NOW! D:<)

and...thats all off the top o me head. :O

I swear...by the time I turn 18, I wont need to take japanese....I'll end up learning it all by watching anime. XDD

*On a side note...I love this icon. :D ..Read the whole thing. XD